Thanks for chiming in on another article Ben. I think (and you can tell I am not an intellectual) that the starting point in what you are searching for is to recognize whether or not you believe in God. Once you establish that belief then all else flows from there.
Some believe in a God that created the universe, set it in motion and then just sat back with a bucket of popcorn to watch how it turned out. Others believe in a God that is ever present in our lives and affects every moment and every thing we do. And, of course, there are gradations in between.
I would love to read your thoughts as they evolve and I hope anything I write can help you. At least I hope I don’t confuse you.
Be well.